This matter of shunning is something ive never thought over much about because my whole family left the org about the same time. So it never caused me any serious inconvenience, certainly it never caused me deep hardship such as a poster like "ozziepost" suffers at the hands of his own children.
But this week, for some reason, I have been thinking upon it and remembering things. Remembering how, whenever i encountered a dub I would never know, as they approached me, whether they would stop and speak, or address me and keep walking, or move past pretending I didnt exist, or turn aside with a look of disgust on their face. Even after many years out of the org, whenever I was forced by circumstance into their milieu ( such as at my fathers funeral) I would find myself suffering silently as some treated me like something that crawled from the sewer while others came up all concerned and emotional, all touchy feely with me.Its a hurtful thing to see someone you thought was fond of you turn aside from you with a facial expression like you are a slug that just crawled from under a rock. Why should THEY have that right? Why do I put up with it?
I eventually tired of playing their game and became exceeding angry over the whole thing. Why should they dictate the terms of association after 25 years out of the org? So I choose, if I encounter them again, to ignore them all now, even the ones who would give signals that they might approach me.We have nothing in common any more anyway.